Today is a fustrating day as a mom.  i think a combination of being tired and not feeling well is about to send me over.   I think the kids need to get back to a normal school day.  I have a lot I need to accomplish but you know how it is when you feel overwhelmed it is hard to get motivated.   Church is weighing on my mind alot.  It is hard to be completely devoted when you walk in a room and hear conversations that really have no benefit at all to the person.  It is like they feel that everyone must hear their story and get as much sympathy as possible.  My emotions this time around are no longer anger,  but such a deep sadness of how christian behave and what they are willing to support in the name of either revenge or justice.   I have not and will not discuss the situation with church members however I feel that this situation is going to become very prominent in the church.   It is very sad.  My desire that within the next few years God calls us out of Xenia.